Once Upon A Time

A Tribute to the ex

2006-10-04T22:15:03Z

Many years have gone by and in the end all I can hope is nothing but happiness for you. I know that I wasn't always around when you needed me most, but in the end you came out an even better and stronger person because you learned your lesson the hard way. When we were together I never thought that I would be able to sit here and see a picture of you and your current love and feel happy for you... but I can. Even if I am not at your side now and never will be, know that you had my heart. Now that we're no longer in love it doesn't seem like much, but the fact that you had my heart with you is a memory so great that not even time can erase. I pray that you still don't have a grudge against me. I only sought to do what was best for the both of us. Space. Because of that you are happier than you've ever been and I hope that you give me half of the credit for it. Remember that your heart is more powerful than you know. It has lead you to who I'm sure is an amazing woman. And like your mind, your heart takes the time to rationalize. With that note in mind, you have done well, and I hope that you continue to. When the roads become steeper on the way, and they will, remember how much you have overcome, and I will remember that how much I have is because of you. Thank you.

cinderella327 @ 2006-03-14T21:38:00

2006-03-15T02:38:41Z

The Game I Played

In the game of regret
We played Tag
You were it
The wheel that intertwines
The start
The finish
Together form an eight

First step
Player one consumed by heartbreak
Player two innocent, naïve
A new board, bare to defeat

I rolled the dice
Each dice represented a contrasting number
One of 2
The other of 3
The even pursuit
The odds of the outcome

Player two rolls even
Seldom odd
Always eager to create smiles
Constantly filled with tears

With by-chance-wins
Player two played fare
I played to cheat
Did I really Win?

cinderella327 @ 2006-01-04T19:53:00

2006-01-05T00:53:27Z

In your eyes I see the way I want to live
The person I’m meant to be is with you
And through I may hesitate to think further
Don’t think I don’t dream the same as you
Every emotion I’m meant to feel is with you
And even if I cry I know you’re there

You see the best in me
What I could never see
You make me speechless
And without you I’m not me
I want to be in love with you
I know we will be

I want to be everything you need
Anything just so you’ll stay
And never feel the need to leave

cinderella327 @ 2006-01-02T02:42:00

2006-01-02T07:49:42Z

How you know to let go
When the memories still hurt you
When his face still pierces your heart
When you know what you have will fight for you
And the past never helped to make you smile
Thats when you know you can let go

When you can't remember a night then that you didn't go to sleep crying
But you now go to sleep with butterflies and confidence in your heart
When nothing seemed to go right, but now everything perfect in its place
When you can't help, but look at whats infront of you and be proud
Thats when you know you can let go

When the romantic scenes aren't just in movies
When you feel protected at all times
When you not only find confidence in what you have
But who you are
When you accomplished more now than you could with a baggage of heartache
When you learn to not only be happy with someone else
But with yourself is when you know you can let go

Considerate

2005-12-28T06:51:28Z

Don't come to me with your accusations on the friend I was
I went through hell and back for you
Broke all of the rules
Gave you all the love my heart could feel
To only feel all the pain I've ever felt

Now you're pointing the finger at me
I was there when no one else was
It wasn't out of love but of friendship too
And now I tried to be there for you
But I want to be happy too

I was there for the pain
The laughter
And the abuse
But now I grew up
I learned that as much as Im there for you
I've realized I'm important too

I am your friend
Always will be
Never changed
Never wanted you to go through pain
But I want you to be happy for me

Threw With You

2005-12-20T05:15:30Z

Yea I'm selfish
And I'm needy
But I'm not going to change
If you don't like it
then stop loving me because I'm not the same
I will never be the same

You've made me this pale canvas
Shaded only in black and white
When she's not around is when you start calling again
Stop trying to use me
I'm tired of the abuse

You had your chance but you threw it away
and here you are with the torture and pain
All the hurtful memories I put away
I've been there for you as much as I can
But you're selfish and needy too
And I've helped all I can for now
You're just bringing back the pain

I didn't want him to interfere but what choice do you give us
I have to move on and remember that I'm threw with you
The memory is more vivid than you can try to erase
Yea and what if I was persistant?
You never gave me the time of day
Now you live with the blame
Because I never want to feel the way I did in those days

Rewrite

2005-11-28T04:48:56Z

Keep Smiling [27 Nov 2005|11:40pm]
So here we are
With nothing but the space you've made
Neither of us in dier pain
But I know things still aren't the same
I messed up I couldn't lie to you
I don't want you back
I just want to talk to you

We've shared so much
Cried too much
But laughed a lot
Created memories to cherish
Tried to heal one another
suddenly without knowing it...
We did

The space built stregnth
Courage
The will to make things better than we could together
Though I know this is what the price is for an inconsiderate heart
I'm happy knowing without me you can still smile

Keep Smiling

2005-11-28T04:44:35Z

So here we are
With nothing but the space you've made
Neither of us in dier pain
But I know things still aren't the same
I messed up I couldn't lie to you
I don't want you back
I just want to talk to you

We've shared so much
Cried too much
But laughed a lot
Created memories the cherish
Tried to heal one another
suddenly without knowing it...
We did

The space built stregnth
Counrage
The will to make things better than we could together
Though I know this is what the price is for an inconsiderate heart
I'm happy knowing without me you can still smile

Healed

2005-11-13T19:18:08Z

I'm sorry I messed up
Made you hurt the way you do
Though I was honest
I was true
I should've known
I was once just like you
Weak to the way we feel
Taking the risk of a broken heart due to prayers of hope
Then when our hope is damned and ruined
We know we were a fool

So I don't blame you for the solitude
The attempt to erase the memories
Its the process to a healed heart
A process I belive we both need
I needed to grow and forget the pain
You needed to move on and know the worth of your heart

In the end I wish the best that the world can guarantee a man
And with the hope I have left tnat you accept my apologize
Know how guilty I feel to know I shot a star
But you do shine bright
Brighter than I ever could
I pray that we'll meet again with our stars lighting our way
Only then we'll know that we've both been healed

cinderella327 @ 2005-10-17T16:04:00

2005-10-17T20:08:43Z

I've fallen
Damned and bruised my soul
Took the crash for this love
I know where your heart is
But its not with me

I'm sorry I fell for the line
I thought it would be me
I was fooling myself
What we had was a lie

Though you don't belive my theories
You have broken through every line
Gave up and gave in to something new
I won't bother to intrude

We hold on for what we've known
The comfort having one another there
But I'm better off with the pain and fake smiles
Your better with a love I can't deny you feel is not me

Glass Heart

2005-10-17T02:45:34Z

I am glass, reflecting everything you want
But I'm empty won't you fill me up
Stop hiding and denying what you feel because I'm hurting too
My face is only the mask to my emotions
Can't you see I'm crying
I'm dieing without you
A laugh is a scream

So won't you fill me up
Make me whole again
I've been chipping for miles
scratching your bare feet so you can feel who I really am
I'm not what you see

The still frame is me acting a scene
A fake scenario I'd like to believe is real
But you know my monologue has flaws
I forget the lines
where do I begin?
When does your part come in?

cinderella327 @ 2005-10-06T23:24:00

2005-10-07T03:33:24Z

Im the scarce reality of love
The reality that you refused to believe
What you once deserved, but no longer can hold
So I was real, natural, bare, stripped of all the lies that contained me

Then I cried till there were no tears left
The millions of flaws I believed scard me of the truth that I'm not the mistake
I believed for so long it was me
The imperfection of something that had to be so beautiful
Something that had to be real, honest, and pure

The reality of love shook me
Woke me up from this hopeless dream
The still frame paused in my mind forever
Heartbroken, dispared I shut you out
Cut the rope that restrained my reach

The reflection of what used to be stares back at me
I hesitate to find purposes to acknowledge your existance
But I promise I'm trying
I'm praying for this pain to pass to gain back a friendship thats been lost
So I can say I loved, but I can love again

cinderella327 @ 2005-09-30T21:36:00

2005-10-01T01:38:54Z

We laugh to make a perfect world
To cover the pain
To avoid whats real
Trying to forget the unbarable

Good-bye Kiss

2005-10-01T01:36:00Z

Love is bigger than us
Love is bigger than you
Love is more than you can offer or stand
It tugs at your heart
Crying at your feet
Love is better than you'll ever know
Love once blessed you and embraced you
until your ungrateful heart threw it out
Love no longer pitries you
No longer sympathizes with you
Love will have nothing to do with you
And neither will I

cinderella327 @ 2005-09-30T18:18:00

2005-09-30T22:19:45Z

I'd do it again
Fall in love
To be pulled back out
Just to say I felt
I felt alive
I felt free
I felt how breathing is really sapposed to be
I fell
I cried
I died
But I lived because of love

cinderella327 @ 2005-09-30T18:16:00

2005-09-30T22:18:12Z

There we layed
Face to Face
Together on your bed
I placed my hand over your eyes and mind
I looked at you
And you stared right into me
I winked with my right eye
And you smiled as if you hadn't in years
It was a smile to love
It was a smile to have

Change For Me

2005-09-30T22:16:12Z

I want to know every thought running through your head
Please tell me you love me more than just a friend
I want to forget the meaning of it all
The reason why we can't be together
Show me love
That I'm the woman of your dreams
I'm praying and hoping that no one else catches your eye
Keep me sane and happy
I know you can change

A Rose In Another Name

2005-09-30T22:11:30Z

Could you smell my petals and know the curves of my stem?
What would you critisizw?
Am I perfect to the last breath?
Or do I fie wiht a moments sunlight?
Am I in fact the perfect addition to your flower bed?
Suppose another bud gloomed at your soil
Would you leave my petals to dust?
Or would you endure my lasting fragrance?
Show me to the other gardeners in glorious pride.
If not cherished this rose is soon to die.

cinderella327 @ 2005-09-30T18:04:00

2005-09-30T22:06:59Z

Well I haven't written in a long time so I thought that it would be kool if I wrote down all of my poetry here. So from now on its going to be my poetry page.

cinderella327 @ 2005-07-11T22:01:00

2005-07-12T02:11:09Z

My whole life I was always left behind. People always saying you're too young to understand, or you're just too young period. Even now thats still a battle I am always fighting. Not old enough to go to clubs, or even to get the job that I want.I wish that to life age really was nothing but a number, but it never will be. Crying and constantly fusing about it won't make a difference, but maybe all of it will make me realize something. Being older isn't really all that its cracked up to be. Yea maybe all of my older friends get to go to all the good clubs and have the jobs, but in the end they have to pay bills, wake up and take vacation days for work and me being young or atleast having the privilidges I do, I don't have to work or pay bills. Its gives me more time to be a kid and concentrate on me.Though it bothers me now, my time will come to do all of those things.

The Perfect Ending

2005-07-07T19:31:56Z

Taken in context
It's not a bad thing
But when you start to pick it apart
It gets so depressing
It's that sort of thing
That makes you think too much
It's that sort of thing
That makes you lose your objectivity

So, if you made it
Just be glad that you did and stay there
If you ever feel loved or needed
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones
And if it's over
Just remember what I told you
It was bound to happen
So, just keep moving on
There's no perfect endings

You peel back the layers
And get down to the inside
But sometimes you lose sight
Of what it was you were trying to find
And it's that sort of thing
That makes you think too much
It's that sort of thing
That makes you lose your objectivity

So, if you made it
Just be glad that you did and stay there
If you ever feel loved or needed
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones
And if it's over
Just remember what I told you
It was bound to happen
So, just keep moving on
There's no perfect endings
No perfect endings

Now Its Done

2005-07-04T03:49:29Z

moving in slow like the smoke from your cigarette.
every step closer's a step that we both will regret.
keeping a tally, but who can keep track?
your overreacting is taking me back to a time better left alone.

holding onto the phone, holding onto this glass, holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
waiting for better words, they'll never come.
so dry your eyes, it's better.
now it's done.

keep a tight grip like a child holding onto a swingset.
waiting and hoping to find what i can't figure out yet.
please don't unless this is something to me.
another nightmare instead of a dream.
better left alone.

holding onto the phone, holding onto this glass, holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
waiting for better words, they'll never come.
so dry your eyes, it's better.
now it's done.

i never lost so much.(x3)

holding onto the phone, holding onto this glass, holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
waiting for better words, they'll never come.
so dry your eyes, it's better.
now it's done.

holding onto the phone, holding onto this glass, holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
waiting for better words, they'll never come.
so dry your eyes, it's better.
now it's done.

Straylight Run

2005-06-29T02:12:29Z

replacing old dreams with flattery from new loves.
a hurricane self help into this evacuation from this.
you never meant to, you never meant to. call me. call me. i'll answer.

do you think that this could work out? do you think you could come around?
do you think that this could work out again? i don't.
i don't wanna be forgotten. while you're putting all your time in, into things that don't mean anything to me.

it's too bad, and it's even sadder, i'm losing everything, that i thought this was a lost cause, it was, and i never knew it. try them on and let them go. it might be best to just forget me. walk away and you know you're better off to call me. call me. i'll answer.

do you think that this could work out? do you think you could come around?
do you think that this could work out again? i don't.
i don't wanna be forgotten. while you're putting all your time in, into things that don't mean anything to me.

wasting faster than the hourglass, it's slow but i'm not ready, not okay, don't make this harder than it already had to be. call me. i'll answer.

do you think that this could work out? do you think you could come around?
do you think that this could work out again? i don't.
i don't wanna be forgotten. while you're putting all your time in, into things that don't mean anything to me.

do you think that this could work out? do you think you could come around?
do you think that this could work out again? i don't.

cinderella327 @ 2005-06-12T00:46:00

2005-06-12T04:53:38Z

Name: Tiffany Santos
Birthday: March 27, 1988
Birthplace: Hialeah, FL
Current Location: Home...
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'2
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Handed
Your Heritage: Hispanic
The Shoes You Wore Today: Roxy sandles
Your Weakness: Love...
Your Fears: Dieing
Your Perfect Pizza: Thin crust! Yummy!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Get a job
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Hey lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: god its early!
Your Best Physical Feature: eyes
Your Bedtime: whenever I fall asleep
Your Most Missed Memory: being with my sister
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: either, or
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Swear: sometimes
Do you Sing: a lot!
Do you Shower Daily: of course
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: yes
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you belive in yourself: no, but I should
Do you get Motion Sickness: yes
Do you think you are Attractive: no
Are you a Health Freak: no
Do you get along with your Parents: yes
Do you like Thunderstorms: while I'm home at night
Do you play an Instrument: no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes, carlos's graduation party
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no :(
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no I don't really eat oreos
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: yes, the end of the year dance show
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been called a Tease: yes, but oh well thats life
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: thats undecided at the moment
What country would you most like to Visit: Italy

Yellow

2005-06-08T02:44:16Z

Yellow (Taken from "Parachutes")

Look at the stars,

Look how they shine for you,

And everything you do,

Yeah, they were all yellow.

I came along,

I wrote a song for you,

And all the things you do,

And it was called "Yellow."

So then I took my turn,

Oh what a thing to have done,

And it was all "Yellow."

Your skin

Oh yeah, your skin and bones,

Turn into something beautiful,

You know, you know I love you so,

You know I love you so.

I swam across,

I jumped across for you,

Oh what a thing to do.

Cos you were all "Yellow,"

I drew a line,

I drew a line for you,

Oh what a thing to do,

And it was all "Yellow."

Your skin,

Oh yeah your skin and bones,

Turn into something beautiful,

And you know for you,

I'd bleed myself dry for you,

I'd bleed myself dry.

It's true, look how they shine for you,

Look how they shine for you,

Look how they shine for,

Look how they shine for you,

Look how they shine for you,

Look how they shine.

Look at the stars,

Look how they shine for you,

And all the things that you do.

Yellow Tabs